There Is Beauty In the Breakdown

AHHHHHHH!

so much is going on right now.

First: as I’ve already said. I get my license Monday. can you say SUPER PUMPED!

Second: I got a job! It’s this quaint little place right down the road from my house. It’s called Two J’s Smokehouse, it’s a barbecue joint(no pun intended. lol), and might I add that their food is DELICIOUS! and I’m not just saying that because I work there. Their food really is bangin’! but today was my first day. and I do a little bit of busboy-ish work and some cashier work as well. I think i’m gonna like it.

Last but not least,

Third: I officially have a boyfriend. Now i’m not gonna sit here and bore anyone with my giddy schoolgirl-ness, but he FINALLY asked me out last night. and I could not be more happy and on top of the world right now. nuff said ♥

I am so happy right now. Like it’s ridiculous. I feel like everything in my life is just falling so perfectly into place right now. (KNOCK ON WOOD). but I don’t think I’ve ever been this content with my life. I hope this keeps up. I like it.

but that is all.

farewell.

sooooo.

Here it is October 31st, once again. And I have absolutely nothing to do. Everyone has jobs and shit to do now. I hate it. I wish I could go back to being six where I had no worries or cares in the world. When everything was easy. I wanna get excited for this night, dress up, and go out to get free candy from strangers. Is that too much to ask?

My little cousin, who just so happens to be six, just stopped by to receive his treats. He was a cowboy this year and looked absolutely adorable. Is it bad to be jealous of a six year old boy with missing teeth and funny hair? Probably. Oh well.

Moving on…

On another note, I started my Behind the Wheel course today. I shall be holding my license in a week. FINA-FUCKING-LLY! SO EXCITED I CAN’T CONTAIN IT! I should have had it the day after Christmas of LAST YEAR, but I failed my first permit test, and being the slacker I am, waited a while to go back and try again. worst move ever. THEN, I was supposed to get it back in August, but my parents started complaining about how we have no money and we are broke. Even though my uncle (yes my uncle) has a serious shopping problem, and buys the most unnecessary and useless shit that we DON’T need, on a regular basis. (he really should be put into a Shopaholics anonymous group, it’s that bad). Don’t EVER put him anywhere near an infomercial, he’s addicted to ‘As Seen On TV’. but I digress…To make my point. I get my license soon. I’m excited. That’s that.

If anyone cares…Things in my life are going really well. I couldn’t be more content at the moment.

Things with my hopeful love interest are heating up to. but I’m not gonna let you in on the juicy details. Those are for me to know, and for you to never find out. (;

but now is the time for me to go chill on my couch, watch a movie, and relax.

Goodnight all.

♥

while hanging out with mister Joe one night, we created this awesome rap.

enjoy.

‘waving gang signs in the air, busting caps in bitches like we just don’t care, cops on the ground, cops in the air, all my homies stop and stare’

first blog. don’t judge.

The past few months of my life have been kinda crazy and stressful. I went through a bad and unusual breakup. twice. (with the same person, mind you). After a year and a half of being together. and things are just now starting to clear up and become normal again. Not as much fighting and crying and screaming. We still talk, occasionally, just the simple, “hey” or “how are you?”. We’ll just have to wait and see how things pan out from here.

Senior Year has been a handful as well, with worrying about SATs and College Applications while maintaining my grades at school. I want to pull my hair out. I am completely at a loss with what to do about any of it. I, just about a week ago, figured out what I want to major in and do with my life…maybe. That is definitely subject to change.

Fortunately, home life hasn’t been too crazy thus far. I mean yeah there are the occasional bad moods and spats, but that’s with any family right? It’s just been better than past years. My family has been through a lot and I bet we’ve all hated each other at some point, but we still come together when it matters. and I’m not talking mom and dad here. I live with my aunt and uncle. and my other aunt and uncle live right down the road. We are kinda a close family…sometimes.

And then there’s him. The guy, that through everything, knows how to make me smile more than I even thought was possible. We’ve been friends for a while. I actually dated one of his ex? best friends a few years back, and that’s how we got so close. We use to talk on the phone for hours and hours about nothing in particular and everything at the same time. (yes, it made the ex best friend rather jealous). He seriously became one of my best friends that year though. And then when I started dating the guy I was with for a year and a half. we kinda lost touch for a while, but recently we started talking again. But things were different this time…I seriously started growing feelings for this guy. When I’m with him, absolutely nothing else matters but right then and there, with him. We could be doing absolutely nothing and I could be having the time of my life. I forgot what that felt like. This feels all so new to me again. but I’m happy, and I like it this way. ♥

So that’s it.

DONE.

tumblrbot asked: WHAT IS YOUR EARLIEST HUMAN MEMORY?

I think it may have been when I fell out of my aunt and uncle’s swing when I was about four.

OUCH.

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